Monday, December 26, 2005

The Mr. and his dog

...Just had to share this picture, My daughter took it while she took care of the Raleigh Dog during our trip to the rodeo. She lets him do things that he would get in trouble for at home. I'll have to start giving her his repremands instead of him.

Today the Mr. is out bird hunting, A trip to the Condon area. I have not a clue just where the hell that is but he called and he's having a good time.
I think its good for him to take little breaks like this, He dedicates his life to making my life comfortable.

I think getting this bird dog was a good thing for him, First the Brittany Spaniel breed practically trains itself they are so smart. Therefore not adding to his frustration of pet care, and useful too...Bonus.

They make the owner look so brilliant, they are so clingy and love attention. The thing I get to do with him is treat him to spa nights. You guessed it, Bathing and grooming, He loves it and when its cold and rainy out can't wait to jump in the tub and then get dried with the blow drier.

Isn't it funny how for the most part we treat or pets whether it is dogs, cats, or horses so much like members of the family. If you are not a pet owner you just wouldn't understand.

Hmmmmm, now I know why the Mr. keeps me around. Just kidding.

My it's a wonderful life moment

During the progression of our family dinner I remember feeling a little wiped out, But almost ahead of myself. I know that's an oxymoron. But it was like I was getting a red tape free finale to my preparations, Although I felt the struggle to finish anything I started this year, The heavens were helping me along in the final sprint to get things done.

I had another revelation in the middle or near the end of our name draw gift exchange, I had an inner peace come over me and I heard no noise, things looked warmer, even felt the glow.
(And I wasn't sweating so I know it wasn't a hot flash.)

My family is so precious to me, I had the #1 son here by the way of his gift, A picture book that he and my Daughter in law so thoughtfully created of their wedding.

They were passed around for the whole family to enjoy and everyone here missed them terribly, But our hearts were eased with the sights of their faces!
We missed their hugs though.

We had the #1 Grandson missing this year, He went on his first that he could remember plane flight to visit his Dad in Spokane, WA., He was so excited for this. I know he loves his Dad but Christmas Eve is an important gathering on this side of the family. I guess I'll need to reiterate this to his Dad, I know his Dad knows this. We missed him.

Its so hard to have split/broken families and coordinate these events so they have meaningful memories and experiences to pass on to their kids.

Anyway back to the feeling...I had never felt quite like this before, It was a Wonderful life moment like you've watched being portrayed in the movies, All the gift giving didn't matter only the smiles on everyone's faces, I seen contentment and love in its true beauty.
I felt some special sentimental past Christmas feelings by way of my baby sister, I love her! (Daughter)Jalana having her Dad in her life after all these years. This needed to happen.

I felt some present feelings by the way of a new face to our gathering she was both a happy and delightful new member and very much welcomed.

A new future feeling that the #2 grandson had shown me in the newly generated feeling for him of giving a gift that he had worked for and picked out, He experienced first hand the future of the joy of giving of himself. And no it wasn't the gift that mattered to me it was the happy heart I could see, He gave so joyfully. It takes a lifetime for some people to feel what he felt on the 8th Christmas of his life.

I've always thought Trenton was an old soul in a young body. He will make someone truly happy someday with his down to earth attitude, He's a good spirit with a good heart.

So I guess my gift was a surprise after all, I never expected to feel the ambush of emotions that I've felt this holiday, I'm only thankful for them...What a gift!

God truly blessed me and my family this year!

Friday, December 23, 2005

Merry Christmas Everyone

Well, the stockings are hung...the E-gifts are sent, the presents are bought, and the dinner is partially made. Whew!
My thoughts go to those who are not with us here at our home, A couple kids missing but not forgotten by any means. I hope their Christmas is wonderful! We miss you!

And to all my friends,
I wish you the Merriest Christmas Ever! Kisses...Sweeti

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

25 Years Ago...

You see this Man, this is my Dad and that is me. He was the man of my life. I loved everything about him. I remember thinking I would marry a man just like him when I grew up.

He taught me to eat peanut butter with Ice cream, hominy grits, and best of all he taught me to take pictures. We used an old Brownie type camera and black and white film. I still love photography today because of him...and peanut butter and Ice cream too!
He played Guitar and sang like Merle Haggard and serenaded me every chance he got and I blushed and hide my face everytime but love every minute of it. He taught me songs and we sang together for the few short years he was around. He was king in my world.

He was a Logger, Drywaller, and Carpenter...Traveled a lot and mom and us kids did not always get to go with him. He and my Mom had a torrid love affair and finally marriage, He was so flirtatious, charming and such a ladies man and now that I'm older know he was not faithful for the most part.

I don't know if it was my Mom that drove him to it or if he just couldn't settle down with one woman.

He had a older Harley Davidson, Sky blue, I remember it like it was yesterday. Simply Beautiful, Sexy even, a 1962, With all the black leather saddlebags and chrome you could see coming a mile away it sparkled so much.

Almost like this one.

On the bike was always 2 helmets, One said Harold on the back and one said Ingjerd. Too many people told my Mom they seen her and my Dad riding around town, When she wasn't the Ingjerd under the helmet and she knew it not with 3 kids to tend to at home. It was a lady named Urma, Another fiery Redhead you see he had a passion for Redheads.

My Mom forgave him and took him back many times and I know it was because she truly loved him. He had stolen her heart and ruined it for any man to come. She always had distrust issues from then on.

But you know, growing up there was no other man that could take his place in my life either. I loved my Dad and he could do no wrong, I would steal his t-shirts from his dresser to sleep with because his smell always kept me close to him. I would sleep like a baby with that smell around me.
This man knew I love and cherished him, that I know this to be true.

I still don't understand how a man can leave his little girl knowing her heart will be crushed when he doesn't come home that night by choice. And chose not come home for months because of a new love interest. Not only was I waiting for him but two brothers also. Hmmmm how sad, he couldn't realize before it was too late.

I did spend time with my Dad before his death, We traveled and talked I forgave him like my mother before me, Although he never got all of my trust back and I so wanted to give it to him. He can't hurt me anymore and know I can say I loved him more than he could ever have loved me in 2 life times.

Rest in peace Dad

I still miss you!

Well, to the results of all my testing...It showed my kidneys acting badly spewing protein like there's no tomorrow, my liver enzymes higher than normal and my Ldl up 30 points all this and I haven't changed anything. Then to top it all off I get to have sinus surgery January 10th. and look like a Racoon(black eyes) for weeks afterward. This all sucks! Lets hope it helps.

I'm still trying to get myself ready for Christmas and its almost here, I keep taking stabs at decorating the tree, then I take a break, and go back again. I will finish sooner or later I guess... maybe by New Years huh.

Wade or the Mr. made it home safely and the trip was good, The barn has proved to be an opportunity to be more lucrative.
These are of the grounds and the club house and the barn at Menlo Circus Club in Atherton, Ca. Check it out there's still leaves on the trees!

He brought back pictures on the digital camera I kind of passed down to him, I was testing him to make sure he showed responsibility with it and brought it back home with him. He has this horrible habit of leaving things at barns, such as coffee cups (you know the travel kind) and shirts or jackets and phone chargers. I just didn't want to see the camera fall prey to the same fate. He did good and brought it home safe and sound. I have to give him his "Atta Boy"

We attended an annual Christmas Party that is given in honor of a few Bird hunting trips, Pheasant and Chucker being the main course. Actually its just a nice Christmas party without the expense of gift giving.
Everyone brings a dish depending on where the letter in the last name is in the alphabet.
Mine is always on desert and people tell me this too.
I came thru with a requested whipped Raspberry cheesecake with vanilla mouse and raspberry caps on top drizzled with white chocolate. I left with a huge pan and it came home empty!
This house it was held at was incredible and huge. All the room you needed and more with every detail accommodated. The host and hostess of this years bash were wonderful, just as the hosts of years past were.

Our gracious host and hostess Dean and Leslie.

So this was the bright spot of my week, I enjoyed myself and eat some of the best homemade Macaroni and Cheese for which I'm still awaiting the recipe. Let me know if your interested in it, I'll share. You won't be sorry, Yummmmm!
That was my splurge, I sat and eat this and realized half way thru that this was the most Carbs I had eaten in a long time. But did I stop...Hell No, the damage was already done. I made that sound as if I gorged myself and I did not, just made some unwise choices. But loved every morsel of it!

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Meet my Co-Author

This is my sweet Toby kitty he is the same cat that I swear I could do without in the middle of my slumber and he thinks he needs to go out at 3 or 4 in the morning. [That's soooo aggravating]

He cannot resist accompanying me at the PC while I write at least he makes my lap warm, He is getting to weigh a little weight now...It must be his body clock like mine thinking store up for the winter. Posted by Picasa

Oh, My Gosh has life been hectic!

Oh, My Gosh has life been hectic and freezing cold, 22 degrees here this morning but sunny WooHoo! The cousins in Florida must have their ears burning now because all I can talk about is how good it must feel to have the 80 plus degrees baking your bones this time of year. (Note to self)... Some year I will give myself a gift of summer sun for Christmas like a week in the St. Croix or the Bahamas. A great pipe dream on my part...

Between getting the Wade ready to go to California and mind you- without Me, and running to all these different Drs. Appointments for one thing or another.

I have finally got a few days to myself.

I'm not looking forward to Monday and Tuesday though because I will get results from all the CT scans and blood work done this week. Hopefully it will be ok and they come to some conclusion why I can't get feeling up to par. But I'm not wasting a minute of solitude on worrying over that, the results will be the same no matter what!

I should be doing my baking while no one is here to eat it all up before I get it in the appropriate containers and shipped to its destination, But I'm not...I should be finishing decorating my tree that stands in my living room all naked of bulbs and decorations, It has lights only because the tree comes out of a box and its pre-lighted. You want hear something funny, I go and plug the tree in and just look at the simplicity of the lights and kind of enjoy it. It's one of the simple things in my life right now that I like...And a little laziness too, Which I interpret as self preservation.

Christmas Eve is barreling in upon us quickly and I am just sitting here. For you that don't have the benefit of knowing what a Christmas Eve dinner is like at my house I will explain. First of all my home is small and I pack in up to 20 or so people for dinner, Family and Friends, I do the dinner buffet style because no where in the house could I put a table long enough to fit or accommodate this many people. The strange thing is they keep coming back after I pack them in like sardines so it must not be as bad as I think.

First of all...All diets are off when you come to my house if only for one night. I cook with real butter, use real cream and do nothing low fat.
My dinner will be this wonderful bone in Ham (A Traditional Scandinavian Christmas eve dinner) that I order ahead of time from a local Butcher shop (Fishers), (It has been consistently the best ham that I have ever eaten and I have bought from them for 24 years now).
Then I will make the usual Mashed potato and a nice browned butter gravy, Candied Yams with heavy cream and pineapple (my personal favorite), Lots of appetizers or fillers as the family says. Delightfully Deviled Eggs, celery sticks with cream cheese and some with peanut butter. Oh, and bacon wrapped water chestnut with and without chicken livers. Vegetables usually corn which I for some reason forget about when I put it in the microwave to heat up, and remember ¾ of the way thru the meal if at all.
Now comes the draw I think for my family, I bake for weeks before hand. Pumpkin breads with a cream cheese topping to spread on the slices and Pumpkin pies, apple strudel bread, Christmas stolen (Norwegian fruit bread) zucchini bread, Cookies of all kinds, Chocolate chip, sugar, peanut butter, ginger bread, butter cookies, and if I'm good with time I make Norwegian donuts or Fattigmann a Norwegian fried cookie...It is a carb fest and there is not much left when the dinner is over, We have goodie bags that everyone takes home with them, And they pick their favorite things to take home. This is my gift to the family, it's homemade and made with the greatest care and my best recipes I think it is well received unless they are just humoring me, it's looked forward to each year.

Now I haven't even started my shopping, the spirit is in me but like Jeannie I'm still gathering ideas...I feel your frustration.